Miscellaneous

一件困擾許久的事

2010-01-14T11:31:00.003-06:00

有件事到今天還是不明白，
都過了一段時間，
想起一個我一直一直搞不清楚的問題，
為什么？
我只是想知道一個真正的答案，最誠實的答案而不是敷衍或怕我受傷的答案。
就算聽了會受傷，至少讓我不在有任何遺憾了。
ps: 媽媽曾經說過無論時間如何的沖淡，心理永遠都會有一份疙瘩在。

2009-04-18T01:52:00.000-05:00

不是每個秘密都要知道

2008-02-12T12:58:00.001-06:00

那年，她知道他出轨了，和他的女下属，她亲眼所见．那一天自己男人的车停在一个陌生的小区，然后一起出来的两个人牵着手．那时，她正和女友站在露台上谈化装术．　　她的心霎那间就碎裂掉，他说过要和她牵手一生一世，说一辈子只爱她一个人，怎么转眼，他们的爱情就变得如此薄凉？他又有了欢颜．　　但是她却舍不得离开他，纵然知道他有了外遇．真的是舍不得，十年的婚姻，还有孩子，还有他的面子，总之，她要这个家，装做不知吧．她选择的方式，居然是自己掩埋好伤口，然后过一种隐隐忍的生活．　　过了一年，他和那个女人算了．这从他的表现就能看出来，因为他又回到从前那样爱着她，在意她，吃她的醋的状态．她没有想到，他的外遇，这样快就自生自灭了．他依然对她好，知道她怕冷，买了暖手炉给她；知道她喜欢吃辣椒，吃饭时总去四川菜馆；知道她喜欢收集香水，他一出国就直奔香水柜台．　　忽然有一天，她接到一个电话．　　是一个女人打来的，那个女人说，有点东西想寄给你，希望你看看．　　她一惊，我不认识你，你要寄什么？　　女人说，一年前，我与你老公恩爱缠绵．他写过许多情书给我，还有我们去旅游时的情侣照，还有他给我买的情趣内衣．我想，寄给你看正合适．　　他瞬间呆住，好象被什么刺中旧伤又流了血，但她知道，她不能要，不能看，否则会留下永远的伤和痛．她不如装做什么都不知道，然后过下去，总有一天时间会冲淡一切的．　　你应该看看，那个女人说，那是我们之间的情爱记录．　　她平静的说，不必了，因为他现在已经回到我的身边了，这至少证明你留不住他，在他的心中，我应该比你更有位置．　　放了电话，她出了一头虚汗，作为女人，她何尝不想看看老公是如何给人写情书，如何勾引女孩子的？可她真的不能看，既然已经过去了，那么，一切就过去吧．那不过是一个让人伤心的秘密，最好的办法就是假装不知道．　　但是没有想到，一个邮件还是寄到了．　　她取回了它，一直放在阳台上．有时候，她冲动之下想打开它，想看看里面的内容．可她知道，打开了，她会受伤，会再折腾出从前，她的婚姻也许就岌岌可危了．于是，那包东西一直放在阳台的箱子里．　　又几年过去了，他们搬家，老公忽然问她，这是什么？一个邮包，怎么不打开？那时，他们已经很好了，和从前一样如胶似漆．于是，她说了，他感动的看着她，一把抱住了她，亲人，他叫她．然后，他们一起去外面把那个邮包烧了．　　她终于明白，自己的选择是多么正确，因为有些秘密知道是幸福的，而有些秘密，最好一生都不要知道！

Her day in Lawrence and Kansas City

2007-12-29T08:44:00.001-06:00

this is a pictures sharing section..

Look at her " fao hao" pose!

we were eating in AppleBees after our shopping in Kohls

snowing....in kansas city

typical malaysian white porridge with some meal

say cheese...

so adorable right?

the meal tat we ate in Apple Bees

Before

mashed potatoes

and after meal

snowman and rendeer

so cute..

look at the sky,,did u observe sth ?

[answer: the bird]

bull

playing her Nokia games again...

our dedication to two small kids. this is ziyu creation

and this is mine

xiao yu's one and wei's one

yu's and wei's[up till bottom]

got a gal,,,wanna be a princess here...which is my darling

having honey moon

we were in one of the outlet>>>>Legends

in plaza,,the downtown of kc

"cheese cake factory"

this is restroom

University of Kansas

2007-12-22T08:24:00.000-06:00

Here Ziyu First visit to Kansas. First day here....Those ppl who are in Drake,,u can view her pictures here. First day she was here, she started to miss her Drake ...

*Sigh* No comment At All....!!!!

insight:" Seriously I'm really excited to see u again. Lot of things t update u.haha

msn display pictures and FRIENDSHIP FOREVER.

2007-12-07T09:36:00.001-06:00

I wish if i is with me now.

I woke up at 8.30am this morning．Glance through the notes that were given by the lecturers and signed in the msn messenger. I saw,
[c=62]~™~~1 for all, all for 1, unit 41!!![/c] appears to be busy
~万贯家财，日食三餐；广厦千间，夜眠六尺~
wahaha, How are u getting on recently?
i try to convince myself not to mention u anymore in the blog, but it seems to be hard for me. I always break my own words.Deeply, we are forever a very good friend, that is between friend and lover. This best describe us in the past, present, and in the future. We are immortal that kinds of friends.
if i were to mention some important person in my list, definitely, you would be in the list.I can assure this fact.

In chinese culture, I believe human has predestination and life after death.Perhaps in our past life, we both had too many things that tighten us together. Yesterday, i was chatting with Leong Ghee, she recalled that she met me during .....farewell party. Time passed very fast until we didnt realize it. At that time, you were getting ready to further your studies abroad.We used to have a promise, but it were all gone.

Past few days, i watched one of the HOng Kong tv show. The characteristic of the person reminded me about you. I always dream at night and sometimes i will talk in the dream. That day, i dreamt of you, i vaguely can differentiate it was a dream or it was just my illustration.In the dream, you had an accident same as the guy in the show. I was so sollow until no tear dropped down from my eye balls.It is beyond words. I was so shocked and scared. "Pop,i wake up", it was just a dream, i consoled myself.

I knew it, From the day i knew you till the entire life, you are always the one I concern for.Bless you, Hope that our friendship will last forever,

FRiendshIp Forever.

learn this

Thanksgiving

2007-11-24T18:30:00.000-06:00

Thanksgiving's present from Malaysia..."Manggi Mee" can see?After three months of shipping,eventually,it reached my hand

Nike Shoes which i bought for myself as thanks giving'e present.
Mickey Mouse ,,,my favourite Disney character...

Huge dog , but quite friendly in American family
This is the first time having dinner with American family
This is the group pic,
Another group pic again,in front of the fire place.
The first snow i saw in Lawrence, on 24th of november.

Very glad that today chat with a friend, hopefully u are fine, and sorry for everything, 我喜欢这样的谈话范式，我没有那么多压力。也不用特别避开你。Very naturally we encountered the dbsk 's concert, i was so excited. 赠你：“好聚好散，”。“朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有”

心言：“冬天来了，冻掉一切事情。”

2007-11-20T16:42:00.000-06:00

It has been sometimes.

Still i keep to Blogger...Too many friends are using blogger and Also i realize, Lovely Ziyu is blogging right now. How can I dissapointed her without blogging.

Susprise that she actually posted some old memories in her entries.

http://dukuprincess.blogspot.com/2007/11/memories.html

i went for a football games

Look carefully what is the score?
Kansas VS Iowa

group pic to Ms Anne's house..

This is Mandy, my hong kong's friend...'

Insight:" I put on my weight...Keep Fit....Keep Fit////!!!!

how are u recently? remember what i wanted to share with u?

this is the song

柠檬草的味道

蔡依林 - 柠檬草的味道
作词：李焯雄　作曲：李偲菘
他们猜我们后来有没有再见　
离席了才会晓得怀念
突然我记起你的脸　那触动依然像昨天　
对自己　我终于也诚实了一点
是不是回忆就是淡淡柠檬草　
心酸里又有芳香的味道
曾以为你是全世界　但那天已经好遥远　
绕一圈　我才发现我有更远地平线
我们都没错　只是不适合　
我要的　我现在才懂得
快乐是我的　不是你给的　
寂寞要自己负责
毕竟用尽了力气也未必如愿　
总是要过去以后才了解
突然我记起你的脸　爱不爱不过一念之间　
绕一圈　今天的我能和昨天面对面
我们都没错　只是不适合　
亲爱的　我当时不懂得
选择是我的　不是你给的　
明天自己负责
给昨天的我一个拥抱　
曾经她不知如何是好
若我们再见我会微笑　
谢谢你　谢谢你　
我尝过　爱的好
我们都没错　只是不适合　
我要的　我现在才懂得
快乐是我的　不是你给的　
寂寞要自己负责
我要的　我现在才懂得
选择是我的　不是你给的　
幸福要自己负责
错过的　请你把握

部落格肯定少不了你的一部分

和你纠缠了，两年至三年的时间，

正是画清界限，

因为，那已经是过去式，三年里，我忍受够了你那自私，

一直以来，没有人让我真的能够忘了你，你所说的一切我了解了，把你的爱分享给所有人是吧，

真是有缘无份，
好，谢谢你，
不后悔这一切，真的！
可是有时很想把这一切摸掉，可是不可能吧！
祝福你。英豪！。。。

painful

2007-10-22T18:14:00.000-05:00

it is painful,,,,,,gosh.......sweap u away........

hehe..........
it has been quite sometimes i did not have this

Idiot....,,i still drinking alot of cold water this afternoon.....

hehe...

Chicago trip

2007-10-17T20:59:00.000-05:00

nice trip...hehe

First and foremost,let introduce our tour guide, and oso our,,pretty teacher.

next not let welcome our highly respectable and honorable driver Max..[.Gotta respect elderly ya... ]

wow...love it//

enjoyed this free orchestra.....muaksss

all the pretty and charming gals...

max,,,and pretty PJ teacher..

Navy Pier....>>>Navy Fear,Park..
sweetest Tian Tian also know us Mrs Gan,,,,My First US darling...

trying to eat that.....

nice desserts...nyek nyek...

look at this,,,,Sushi at Todai in Chicago...Damn nice...

The first thing it pop up my mind is,,,My dear ziyu and mummy love this so much...If they were there....how nice it would be..

See,,posing a super woman or power puff gals? haha...I was too full,,,stretch...

Friends in Kansas...

2007-08-23T15:06:00.000-05:00

it is the reflection of mirror,,can u see how messy is our room...my new apartment!!![ because our apartment is under rennovation lar]

The colorful blanket is my roomate ones,whereas my bed>>> look at the left hand side,,tat is mine.
Ding ding ding ding,,,hehe,,,,I'm so happy after coming back from my lab classes,this is my first lab assignment for Logic and design. Do u know wat is it? it is actually a Flashing LED. Basically, it is nth to happy of, but i just feel satisfied with my Work..****Laugh***

And this is my lunch. I made it,,with smoked ham and whole wheat bun and some veggies,,,
M i having a healthy lifestyle?

my FIrst experience In US

2007-08-07T10:18:00.000-05:00

First time, i visited UNited States..Kansas..Lawrence, is the place where I'm going to stay for the coming two years.Currently I'm staying in my uncle's house with my two little cousins.

This evening I'm going to stay in my Apartment.

22 hours of Flight was really irritating. And I would like to Complain about the food that serve in the aeroplane...OH MY Gosh...it was terrible. Perhaps I;m not used to the foreigners' food...bread with cheeses...Fried rice that doesn't taste like Fried rice...Fried noodle with a weird taste...

Rice and those chinese food, such as mee hoon, cans,,mushroom, kechup,,haiz,,gotta buy in the special shops known as chinese Grocery shop...haiz..

went to the supermarket..it was a new experience for me. Meat and fish are frozen. Here, they dont have wat we so call Pasar Pagi in Malaysia... It is not as fresh as our food in Malaysia...haiz...when i first ate, Oh...there is a smell,,,but wat could i do is just adapt to it.

haiz..i really Miss Malaysia..misssssss....my home sweet home...
I miss nasi lemak,,,chao keow teow.,bat kut teh,,wan tan mee, zhu qiong fang, asam laksa, curry chicken..........i missssssssssss....i dun wan to eat those food here....not delicious...T.T...baba...i miss u all very very much

my celebrity look-alikes

2007-07-26T21:43:00.000-05:00

testing on this, and realise that actually i look like a japanese gal..wahaha..so happy...

http://www.myheritage.com

Genting Highlands

2007-07-08T01:35:00.000-05:00

we were in the fitting room...trying jeans...and she is trying the green top..
so scary..
pluck out ur teeth
osppppp....
Vokka..

Ops..this two days one night,,trip in genting..

our driver,,Mr Eugene won money from Casino.and as a result, we got coffee from Starbucks.Thanks for belanja from Eugene,,,
and..not forgetting,
Playing cards in the room, haha..the loser will punish by drinking Vokka...
I guess I m protected by the God,Allah, Sheng, buddha.....,in the beginning I didnt get to try the taste of Vokka...
N my dear ziyu and her dear,,,was the loser,,
Eugene started to laugh around without a reason, i guess he was drunk in the end..
Me, oso drunk in the end..haha...
Those who are drunk will alw say..:" I;m fine,,I'm not blur...
really gotta say sorry to Pity Yunyun and yuyu..
THe mr Eugene was vomitting, and the MIss gan was talking all the night,..causing the other two normal human could not sleep well in the whole night..

Eugene was drunk at first,,

2007-06-24T02:09:00.001-05:00

see....picture was taken..mummy beside me ler..
my lovely lui lui,it has been some times i din wash lui lui, after bathing, feel clean and shinning??

***********************

Wah, i got a wonderful website that provide alot of music score,,yes,,printed out alot of songs...^.^

All about music.

2007-06-23T00:05:00.000-05:00

Suzuki 10-Piano Concert 2002 - Sonata for Two Pianos

Music Sheet-
Hero.
it has been a long time i look for this score,,who is interested? here u are..

the Lyrics-Hero
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will meit away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
[02;14]And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows......
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time you'll find the away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you...
That a hero lies in you......

Did you watch Goong? this is Goong,,REally nice..

Mega Sale..

2007-06-20T23:02:00.000-05:00

Now is Mega Sale!!!!

Shopping, Gal who do not like to shop? please raise up ur hand.

My hand is Itchy....very Itchy..Despite that, currently I'm bankrupt.

My Wish List
1. ODM watch
2. SWATCH----watch
3.Top Shop-purple pants.
4. Camera
5. Laptop
6.New Balance- Sport shoes
7. Puma-pINk jacket.
8. Blythe--
9. DBSK concert dvd...
10. Black Tank Top

these are wishes...ONLY...

Top Shop

All is Blythe

2007-06-18T21:25:00.000-05:00

Mrs GAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CLAIM HERE!!!!!!

RESPECT AND PRIVACY!!!!!

PLEASE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

MOODY................................

MOODY...............................

MOODY.................................

PoRt Dickson + Malacca

2007-06-18T03:24:00.000-05:00

Malacca
Posing..
Ancient house
Red House

Satisfaction.

happy, although there were plenty of us, we found our way to entertain ourselves.

Thanks to our lovely driver, we were able to go to Malacca, due to my suggestion in the car,,,nyek nyek.....

N I M The One who prepare their breakfast...hhehe

Accomodation

Great..5 start Hotel,,wat did you wish sumore??

Port dickson
the view from our room
Restaurant
The pub in Hotel

Heading to the beach..

Food

Em,, seafood, quite ok...the price is reasonable..
Hainan style Chicken rice in Melaka is so so...The price is expensive.
Satay in Kajang, On the way back from Seremban, we stopped by Kajang to Have our Lunck..Quite nice.
So sad, i forgotten to take the pic of food, just base on ur imagination lol...

Complains..

I couldn't sleep with Teddy bear and piggie beside me.

Snoring during the whole night, I CAN SLEEP!!!! Noisy!!!!

Gosh, Yunyun recorded my "dream talk", and keep it to threaten me for the next time,,,Ash...!!!!
And I wanna swim,,too bad,,such a nice swimming pool , i just couldnt jump in..Y? because, I didnt bring Swimming suit..

But,,I woke up at 7am in the morning, N yelling at the fatty teddy bear and Plum piggie to accompany swim with the T-Shirt.T.T they just ignored me and continue to sleep////

Randomly

Eventually, I was wearing my sleeping suit n walked around the swimming pool.

I just woke up, have not brush my teeth yet..hehe
Who is this..? i named this bridge as couple bridge..hehe

2007-06-11T21:25:00.000-05:00

Firstly
Attended my first Yoga class yesterday.

I was sweating like hell..

and today I'm aching all over..

really gotta admire our teacher,She is able to twist her body easily. [secretly tell u,her daughter is elder m I.] could u imagine such a woman could do so, and a young lady, couldn't ,,,Paiseh...haha =,=

Secondly
wai po,hope u could recover as soon as possible..Haih..

Thirdly
Gosh wat happen to my pic..??

Fourthly
I'm wanna go DBSk concenrt..I WAN I WAN,,,I WAN....ASHHHHHHHHHHHH/!!!!!
Y IT IS ON DECEMBER???
Y???
sadly, i couldn't go..

MIss my friend

2007-06-05T05:26:00.000-05:00

I'm a perceptual person.
SO glad this few days ,

Pot Family
i really miss my friend, lee pot,,,who is in Sydney now, she is planning to go New Zealand and Hawaii next year, Is asking me to join...
And oso our POT Gathering in Melbourne.TOo bad, ME and TEA POT couldn't make it. 5 members left two members. Is Okay, perhaps we are going to organize one in US, then all the aus's Pot would come and gather with US's pot...it is just nice...rite?

Good childhood friend
So glad too, we've lost contact for several years, yet few days ago, we met again through friendster...Wah,with the network, it is so convenient. Vaguely in my memory, she is a kind person, who love jesus, teach me alot of songs, save me from trouble. She is also an easy-going person without any temper at all. we used to be best friend since standard three, and same class until standard six. She is a good writer and a good drawer. I enjoyed reading her stories and comic. I miss those day. After seeing that her blog, she actually mentioned about me in her blog. I'm so touched, my best buddy, i Love u. My tears just rowling in my eyes....

Take care everyone. May god bless you and All the best..

Random picture
this three Gan were so stupid.....
Doing a new hairstyle while we were back from Penang.
Look, it is rainning heavily outside.

Who is this? Xiau jIng???

Why so shy? come baby,,,she looks familiar

Cute bun

My creation,,,doggie yi Feng...nyek,,nyek.,,nyek/...

the only pic we took in Penang..So Sad..**sniff**Sniff**

sharing

2007-06-04T21:34:00.000-05:00

recently my friend leepot send me alot of this message, share with u guys,,i love it,,
wearing a cross around my neck it has been a long time i didnt visit church,i miss, and recently, i found my good old friend, Doreen, we used to be in the same primary school,She is the one who first introduce Jesus to me, singing all the songs and myths

Go to Extra mile
God told Abraham to pack up his family and head toward a better land. Abraham moved all his flocks, his herds, his family and even his extended family members. They traveled for months and finally made it to their new land. After living there for a while, they discovered that the portion of land where they settled wasn't able to support them with enough food and water for all the people and their flocks and herds.

Abraham said to his nephew Lot, "We need to split up." He said. "You choose whichever part of the land you would like to have, and I'll take whatever is left." Notice how kind Abraham was to his nephew Lot looked around and saw a beautiful valley with luscious green pas?tures and rolling hills and ponds. He said, "Abraham, that's what I want. That's where my part of the family will settle."

Abraham said, "Fine; go and be blessed." Abraham could have said, "Lot, you're not going to have that land. That's the best land. I've done all the work. I've led this journey God spoke to me, not to you. I should get the first choice." Abraham didn't do that. He was bigger than that. He knew God would make it up to him.

But I'm sure after Abraham realized what was left over for him, he was disappointed nonetheless. His portion was arid, barren, desolate wasteland. Think of it; Abraham had traveled a long distance. He'd gone to great effort in search of a better land, in search of a better life. Now, because of his generosity and kind heart, he was relegated to liv?ing on the scruffy part of the land. I'm sure he thought, God, why do people always take advantage of my goodness? God, why do I always get the short end of the stick? That boy Lot wouldn't have had any?thing if I hadn't given it to him.

Maybe you feel that you're the one who's doing all the giving in some situation. Perhaps you are the parent of an ungrateful child. Maybe your former spouse is taking advantage of you in a divorce settlement. Possibly your company is talking about "downsizing" after you have given them the best years of your life. Perhaps you are the one who's always going the extra mile. You're the peacemaker in the family. Because people know you are kind, generous, and friendly, they tend to take advantage of you or not appreciate you.

But God sees your integrity. Nothing that you do goes unnoticed by God. He's keeping the records, and He will reward you in due time. That's what He did for Abraham.

In essence, God told Abraham, "Because you preferred your broth?ers, because you treated your relative kindly, because you went the extra mile to do what is right, I'm not going to give you a small portion of land; I'm going to give you an abundant blessing. I'm going to give you thousands and thousands of acres; miles and miles of land. All that you can see is going to be yours."

Don't grow weary in well doing. God is a just God, and He sees not just what you are doing but why you are doing it. God judges our mo?tives as well as our actions. And because of your unselfishness, because you prefer others, because you're aiming for kindness, one day God will say to you as He did to Abraham, "As far as you can see, I'm going to give it to you."

Sometimes when we're good to people and we go the extra mile, we have a tendency to think, I'm letting people walk all over me. I'm let?ting them take advantage of me. They're taking what rightfully belongs to me.

That's when you have to say "Nobody is taking anything from me. I am freely giving it to them. I'm blessing them on purpose, knowing that God is going to make it up to me.

Think of the biblical story of Ruth. Her mother-in-law, Naomi, was an older woman who had just lost her husband. Ruth and another daughter-in-law named Orpha lived with Naomi because their hus?bands had also died. When Naomi lost her husband, she told those young women, "I'm going to move back to my homeland. Why don't you do the same thing and just get on with your lives?" Orpha took Naomi's advice and went her own way. But Ruth wouldn't do that.

She said, "Naomi, I'm not going to leave you all alone. You need somebody to take care of you. I'm going to watch after you. I'm going to stay close to you."

When Naomi and Ruth moved to Naomi's homeland, they had no provision there. They had no money and nothing to eat. So each day Ruth went into the wheat fields and followed behind the reapers who were harvesting the crop. She picked up any leftover wheat and grain that fell on the ground. She was finding just a little here, a bit there. Then at night, Ruth and Naomi would make a meal from the glean?ings of wheat. It wasn't much, but the women were able to survive.

God saw Ruth out there working hard in the fields trying to take care of Naomi. God knew that Ruth could have taken care of herself, selfishly living her own life. God knew she had nothing to gain by being concerned about the older woman. And because of her acts of kindness and her good-heartedness, God instructed a man by the name of Boaz, the owner of all those fields, to help her. He said, "Boaz, tell your work?ers to leave handfuls of wheat and handfuls of grain behind for Ruth." Now, when Ruth went out to the fields, she gathered up more than she could handle. She was blessed in abundance.

God sees your acts of kindness and mercy as well. When you are kind to people, when you go around doing good to people, God arranges for others to leave behind "handfuls" of good things for you. You will find a handful of blessings over here, a handful of blessings over there, supernatural favors over here, an unexpected promotion over there. Everywhere you go, you will discover the supernatural blessings of God lying in your path, left there for you by God.
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Rediscovering Eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
who am i

psalms 27:4

2007-05-23T05:24:00.000-05:00

Woke up,the bed is in a mess!!!

Look out the window

stare at these tress and brushes

Start to brush my teeth...

walk out from my bedroom,a wardrode of soft toys

Walk to downstair,and had my breakfast....

start my work,,,,accounts,,,,i hate it...no interest with it,,,fortunately, I'm not major in it

THe table is in a mess again...

personally, i think i'm quite efficient....cuz i spent 4 hours to finish the invoice from Jan to May,,,,...I think who could ever find this job as easy as me,,,,I could listen to MP4 while i was keying the amount, i could even chat with the bos....

reach the office at nine o'clock, i would start to flip through the newspaper,,and start the work sharp at 10 o'clock.

lunch time,,,...i would eat as long as possible,.......

M I Cunning?? YES, I Think I'm...****wink***

2007-05-21T09:59:00.000-05:00

Name: Alexander Lee-Hom Wang
Birthday: 17th May 1976
Birth Place: Rochester, New York
Horoscope: Dragon
Zodiac: Taurus
Blood type: O type
Height: 180cm
Weight: 68kg

Family members: Father, mother, an elder brother(Lee-De @ Leo) & a younger brother(Lee-Kai)
Education status: Graduated with honors from Williams College in Music and Asian Studies
Favorite Food: Japanese food
Favorite Color: Blue
Favorite Sport: Baseball
Favorite Pet: Dog
Favorite Attire: T-shirt & Jeans
Favorite Entertainment: Baseball, Symphony orchestra & concerts
Things Like to Do Most: To bring happiness to other people’s lives
Aim: Communicate with the youths by means of music
Dreams: Bring inspirations to the youths by way of my music
Able to Play: Violin, piano, guitar, percussion
Able to: Sing, compose, arrange, produce, act in musical
Able to Speak: English, Chinese, French
Idol: Stevie Wonder
Favorite Movie: Awakenings (1990)
Favorite Subject: Jazz piano

Lee-Hom (Alexander) Wang was born in Rochester, New York on 17 May 1976. Three years later, he began to sing. Lee-Hom learnt to play the violin and the piano at a young age, and was involved in plays and musicals, including Kiss Me Kate, Briyadoor and Music Man, throughout his school career. He studied music at Williams College in Massachusetts and Berklee College of Music. Lee-Hom received a MA in Jazz Piano & Composition at Berklee College. He is active in all areas of musical production, including composing, producing, arranging pieces, writing lyrics, playing instrumental accompaniments, and directing his own music videos
Lee-Hom comes from a high pedigree of academics; his father is a pediatrician, his brother is a doctor now residing in Chicago, his younger brother is a student at MIT, and most of his relatives are doctors. Like much of his family, Lee-Hom had considered pursuing a medical career. Having been high school valedictorian and receiving a perfect score on the SATs, he was accepted into Princeton and Yale. However, at the last minute Lee-Hom realized his true passion was for music. Amidst criticism from his family, Lee-Hom decided to attend Williams College to pursue his dream to become a musician. Although this decision was unconventional, Lee-Hom was willing to take this risk and his choice has proven to be a wise one.

By combining western music with classical Chinese instruments, Lee-Hom has given a unique twist to Chinese music. He has produced 11 Mandarin albums to date,and is a main songwriter and producer for Sony Music Taiwan. He also owns Homeboy Studios, which operates in both in Taiwan and Boston. On his tenth album Shangri-La, Lee-Hom incorporated the music of the minorities of China into a style he coined "chinked out".

Not much about Lee-Hom’s personal life is known, much to his credit. Unlike many of his Eastern and Western counterparts, Lee-Hom has kept his private life to himself and his dignity intact - he is a musician first and foremost. Lee-Hom is quoted as saying, “Rumors don’t bother me much now, although it’s still annoying at times because it isn’t true. I just don’t want to come out and make the news bigger. I do music and I want to focus all my energy on this and have no desire to use tabloids to promote myself. I don’t want to waste my energy holding press conferences to deny my relationship with certain people or to say that I am not gay because it’s just not in my interest.” It is this aspect of Lee-Hom’s character that many fans respect.

really admire him, he possesses everything,,,my dream guy,,,

TAGGED!!

2007-05-21T07:39:00.000-05:00

glance on these pictures first,,before u continue

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Gan xIAu WeI
Birth Date: 20 september 1987
Current status: it's complicated! Weee~
Eye Colour: Somewhere between dark brown and black!
Hair Colour: Used to be blonde,,now Dark again.. =p
Righty or Lefty: Righty! Righties yeahhhhh!

Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: I'm a Chinese of typical Hokkien descend who doesn't know how to speak Hokkien,but i know how to speak " ROJAK HOKKIEN"...
Your Fears: u guess?
Your Weakness: hard to say "NO" to others
Your Perfect Pizza: .....dunno ler...

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Is my mum still downstair ?
Your Bedtime: Not sure,depends
Your Most Missed Memory: The good times in Dungun and Stact club

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Of course McDonald!!! Cuz,,,got cone ice-cream!!!!
Single or Group Dates: ...
Adidas or Nike: both i like,,,as long as they are nice and comfortable!
Tea or Nestea: seldom yamcha at night!
Chocolate or Vanilla: I'm ok with both ..
Cappucino or Coffee: Seldom drink

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: No
Curse: No.
Take a shower: Yes of course!
Have a crush: haha!!!
Think you've been in love: I KNOW i'm in love.
Go to school: Currently,,I'm in a holiday now...
Want to get married: Heck, yea!
Believe in yourself: in the middle of line
Think you're a health freak: yes and don't wanna be fat!

Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: A bit laa. .
Gone to the mall: Many times!
Been on stage: several times
Eaten sushi: In Sushi King,,,Rm2 for each plate.. with all my dearest...honey and darling
Dyed your hair: Yeah.

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: No! I saw ppl playing
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: If i think I'm wrong i'll change, if I'm not, I will adapt to it!

Layer Eight: You're Hoping
To Be Married: To that one perfect girl of my dreams!
Future time : would be no trouble

Layer Nine: In a Guy
Best Eye + Best Hair Color Combination: I fine with this...better if they are like DBSK!!! *giggling*
Short Hair or Long Hair: No long hair please!!

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: eating porridge
1 Hour Ago: Playing piano
4.5 Hours Ago: listening music
1 Month Ago: Panicking over the fact that finals was approaching!
1 Year Ago: I've forgotten

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: //////dun tell u
I Feel: going to US,,,,yeah!!
I Hate: nagging by ppl, milk,cheese,dairy products
I Hide: since it is hide, so can't mention here,,SorRy
I Miss: Tokyo disneyland,leepot,hou,brother,daddy and ..alicia,,,,
I Need: Too much .......

I learned from Ui-xinn....hehe...
Adapted from ui-xinn.com.my....yeyeyeyey!!!

2007-05-20T10:28:00.000-05:00

恶作剧之吻，台湾版和日语版我都看过，但我还是比较喜欢日剧的

直树和一位友人太像了。我不得不让我想起了他，明明很在乎，但是总是顾全面子。
就像，"她迷路了，他打了电话找她，听的出他紧张的声音。但找到了以后，却只说没有啦，没你好奇怪。"
"她过马路没看到车辆，他赶紧拉着她手，语气重了一点说，你啊，看车！"
"你想我去云顶吗？我只是觉得多人多热闹。但最后却说了，没你去，我去有什么意识呢？其实想你去。。。啦。"

这个友人我一直到现在都没有忘记，虽说大家已经没有了大约五、六个月的时间，加上远在他乡的你，奥而还会想起你,关心你。

于我心,他很特别，一直到现在的我也一样。
这也许就是上帝创造我们时，心脏都是遍左的，人心也一样,这也许就只有你，有这样的待遇吧！我们只是知心的朋友。

你会傻的问我值得吗？把个 "曾经相爱这个人" 到现在, 你对我还是那么的特别、重要，有时我自己也实在无法回答，只是我不由自主的这样关心着你！

别忘了我们的约定噢！这次我占且现放你一马！

祝你幸福！

2007-05-19T08:12:00.000-05:00

Oh my god,,i'm gonna crazy about them again...too bad,,i'm saving my precious money for their concert in malaysia...Ash......Their concert will be in October in Hong Kong,,,TOo bad!!!!! i cant attend their concert in Malaysia....

T.T sad,,,,

Dong bang shin ki is back again....hehehe

2007-05-17T00:03:00.000-05:00

Supposedly, I'm working now, however,,,I "snake" ...claim that i wanna finish watching the last episode...so could i work tomorrow? haha....Fortunately, she allows to start working by tomorrow...

The ending is so vague...too bad,,,

Anyway, i still have another stack of animation...

The prince of tennis..hehe

just received another letter from new school...(University). Out of sudden, i feel scare and worry to be in a total new environment.COuld i adapt to it...Hope that i could..

IS the time for me to learn tobe independent.All the while, i m such a dependent child.

2007-05-16T05:39:00.000-05:00

These are some random pictures...have a nice day

adorable?

Two main dishes i cooked ...one is this...the other is below...hehe
veggie is good for health

i curi curi took her pic yest...while she was studying
ahyo grab the biscuit!!!
look my little cousin

bro.....i just bath
who is this? reading newspaper..
In my grandma's house......

Daddy..who alw call me sweet potato...actually he,himself is big sweet potato" da fan shu"

dou u know what it this?
Change position and look at it

Do you know these?

2007-05-14T02:41:00.000-05:00

Exercise

Time your new fitness ally. For 90% of us, the best time of day a workout is between 4pm and 7pm. Body temperature is at its highest, musles are warm and flexible, strength is at its peak and resting heart rate and blood pressure are low. Therefore preceived exerction is low so you're more motivated and you're also less likely to injure.

For woman, the best time of the month for endurance exercises is 7 to 14 days after ovulation. " At this time progestertone concentration is peaking" says proffesor Thomas Reilly of the Research Institute for the sport and exercise science at Liverpool John.

"Quotable Quote"

All I've ever wanted was an honest week's pay for an honest day's work.

Steve martin in sgt.Bilko

When you're not blonde and thin, you come up with a personality real quick.

Kathy Najimy in people

There is no such thing as an attention span.People have infinite attention if you are entertaining them.

Jerry Seinfield

Inuyasha

2007-05-12T01:34:00.000-05:00

kagome with her gang...smaller version...so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Kirara,sango's pet////oh...it is so adorable!!!

Rin

shippo

yer,,,so cute...cute baby,,

Miroku and Sango

All for Inuyasha...

Miroku is showing his "kaaza"

kikyo.......

sesshomaru cute version

Sesshomaru-my favourite!!!!

Inuyasha...so cute ,human version

Inuyasha....

2007-05-09T08:03:00.000-05:00

You say "it's impossible"
God says "all things are possible"
Luke 18:27

You say "nobody really loves me"
God say "I love you"
John 3:16,34

You say "I can't go on"
God says, "my grace is sufficient"
Corinthians 12:9

You say" I can't forgive myself"
God says "I forgive you"
John 1:9,Romans 8:1

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爱是无私、爱是宽容，
气馁时要谅解与包容乃解决方法最佳
by looking an imperfect person as a perfect one is uneasy,
把缺点视为特点，有几人做得了？
人乃性情中物，
圣人与凡人的分别极大，
几人有圣人之胸怀？
几人有圣人之智慧？
又有几人包读圣贤书？
在这世间寻找可是寥寥无几，海底捞针！

2007-05-09T03:58:00.000-05:00

都在研究着如何把自己的部落格搞得漂亮！

学着html code,css code, 及javascript...
终于也让我学会了，一些basic 的code...哈哈！

哈哈，除了看inuyasha 和play maple 之外，
我觉得这是我做的最有意义的事情了。其实还想找internship 的，但呢，没有拿了几个engineering subject 所以......haih...

嗨，今早还打了羽球，技术嘛，就不用说了，当然是，，，，不足于人道！
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讓愛傳出去

2007-05-07T00:18:00.000-05:00

爱是看不见的语言
爱是摸不到的感觉
爱是我们小小的心愿
希望你平安快乐永远
爱是仰着头的喜悦
爱是说不出的感谢
爱是每天多付出一点点
双手合十不在乎考验
让爱传出去
它像阳光温暖我和你
不管有多遥远总有到的那一天
让爱传出去那前方漫漫人生路
有你的祝福
没有过不去的苦

My Collection!!!

2007-05-05T11:54:00.000-05:00

my Collection!! Of Key Chain...I just Couldnt bring it with me when i m going to further my studies , Haih,,,they are just like my son and daughter,,,I wish i could bring along too. However,due to some restraint......haih....So.........

hehe......An wonderful idea...........is.............by capturing the pictures...i could see it everyday........even thought they are not with me......

my precious.!!!!

nothing special about this!

THis is the disney collection..........hehe......my favourite..cartoon...from disneyland of tokyo and HongKong....

Soon, if i have the opportunity,i'm going to grab one from L.A....

From the Tokyo......Cute ler........

This is the memorable wan....Two penguins are given by Carol....The Footprint is my Ex-skul....St.Mary GAl school..!

Paris ,M'sia,Australia,Swiss,England

Two from the left is given by,,,my foster family, the den the special handmade is given by UI-SAN..... Of course.......

Our pots' family property..........Ipoh Trip....>>>>>>Footprint!!!

They are all kept inside this two boxes!!!

The small soft toys...

Hello Kitty collection....!

The latest collection given by Yun Yun,,,,,,

...Voodoo dolls,,,,,,,by mum........

Mickey again.....Paiseh..........

Special edition from HOkkaido!

Special edition from hokkaido...hehe

Another box.....With baby mickey and baby minnie...

Too bad, i could not post up everything, those are my favourite wan...eheh...........

天外飞仙

2007-04-29T11:28:00.000-05:00

watching drama is always my strength...

seem like this is not a good habit.

HOwever, i enjoy it very much especially during my holiday like now.

Just to share one of the series that i just finish watching. It might not be realistic, however it is kind of touch after i viewed it.

she is the main actress in this series. She is a fairy. She is also the youngest fairy of the god.

Finally they could get married. Unfortunately their duration for the marriage is for 100 days only. This is because, fairy and human are not for mean to be together.They treasure every moment very much...

she kiss his cheek...and he was shy..

This is their teacher, who is a loyal lover. and he is inteliigent and always invent new technology.

hE is always kind and polite in the world. He is an insistant person. He as an ordinary human beings trying to save his belove, the fairy, from then heaven. Although he knows that he will encouter with alot of challenges and obstacles. this doesnt avoild him to take up this challenge.

US

2007-04-25T08:48:00.000-05:00

success to apply my US visa.

oMG,,,that woman is kind of fierce. I forgot to bring my Transcript to US Embacee, Fortunately, they still approve my visa application. However, the lady just said, I gotta be aware of this...

She is a "Fierce" and "unfriendly" lady...
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Oh, what a pleasant it is. I m so efficient, before reaching my destination, i have got my housemate, yiet luu. Having a chat with her through msn messenger just now. She was asking me whether engineering is my first choice?
I hesitated for a while.N wonder y she will ask about this?
Eventually, i get to know tat...,my uncle had told him about that.

SHe is currently doing pharmacy.

iT was my ambition. It is my ambition too. It has been repressed for sometimes.

I started to hesitate...whether, i shall/.....

but to study in US...i need 4 years, instead of 2 years which i m planning now...

due to some financial problem, and competition, i think i should let go....

爱情是如此,人生也是如此,了解了就该放下,放下才会拥有..

2007-04-21T23:59:00.000-05:00

爱情的开始总是甜蜜的。　　后来就有了厌倦、习惯、背弃、寂寞、绝望和冷笑。　　曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了？　　曾几何时，在一段短暂的时光里，我们以为自己深深的爱着的一个人。　　后来，我们才知道，那不是爱，那只是对自己说谎

你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去。你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑。你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，根本不值得你为之伤心。　　今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？情尽时，自有另一番新境界，所有的悲哀也不过是历史。

爱情总是想象比现实美丽，相逢如是，告别亦如是。我们以为爱得很深、很深，来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅、很浅。最深最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。因为爱情的缘故，两个陌生人可以突然熟络到睡在同一张床上。然而，相同的两个人，在分手时却说，我觉得你越来越陌生。　　爱情将两个人由陌生变成熟悉，又由熟悉变成陌生。爱情正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣，又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏。

相信爱情可以令一个人改变，是年轻的好处，也是年轻的悲哀。浪子永远是浪子。令男人改变的，也许是上帝的爱或者佛祖的慈悲，但绝对不会是女人。　　最不宜结婚的是浪子，最适宜结婚的也是浪子。往往不是女人改变一个浪子，而是女人在浪子想改变的时候刚好出现。

男人的一生，不过对女人做两件事：超乎她想象的好和超乎她想象的坏。女人用他的好来原谅他的坏。如果有一天他们不能在一起，不是他太坏，而是她太好。　　我们一生之中，要牢记和要忘记的东西一样多。记忆存在细胞里，在身体里面，与肉体永不分离，要摧毁它，等于玉石俱焚。然而，有些事情必须忘记，忘记痛苦，忘记最爱的人对你的伤害，只好如此。时间会让你了解爱情，时间能够证明爱情，也能够把爱推翻。没有一种悲伤是不能被时间减轻的。　　如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？　　如果所有的悲哀、痛苦、失败都是假的，那该多好？可惜，世上有很多假情假义，自己的痛苦、失败、悲哀，却偏偏总是真的。

他纵有千个优点，但他不爱你，这是一个你永远无法说服自己去接受的缺点。一个人最大的缺点不是自私、多情、野蛮、任性，而是偏执地爱一个不爱自己的人。　　暗恋是一种自毁，是一种伟大的牺牲。暗恋，甚至不需要对象，我们不过站在河边，看着自己的倒影自怜，却以为自己正爱着别人

爱情和情歌一样，最高境界是余音袅袅。最凄美的不是报仇雪恨，而是遗憾。最好的爱情，必然有遗憾。那遗憾化作余音袅袅，长留心上。最凄美的爱，不必呼天抢地，只是相顾无言。　　失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。因为有所期待，才会失望。遗憾，也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。追寻爱情，然后发现，爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。

最浪漫的爱是得不到的。最浪漫的情话，是当哪个已经跟你分了手的人打电话来问："你好吗？"你稀松平常地回答："我很好。"而其实你还爱着他，你一点也不好。　　男人伪装坚强，只是害怕被女人发现他软弱。女人伪装幸福，只是害怕被男人发现她伤心。

爱情，有时候，是一件令人沉沦的事情，所谓理智和决心，不过是可笑的自我安慰的说话。　　爱情从来都是一种束缚，追求爱情并不等于追求自由。自由可贵，我们用这最宝贵的东西换取爱情。因为爱一个人，明知会失去自由，也甘愿作出承诺。诺言是用来跟一切的变幻抗衡。变幻原是永恒，我们唯有用永恒的诺言制约世事的变幻。不能永恒的，便不是诺言。诺言是很贵的，如果你尊重自己的人格。　　爱是有安全感，又没有安全感。爱是一种震撼，也是一种无力感。爱是诱惑，也惟有爱能给你力量抗拒诱惑。爱是忠诚，可是爱也会令你背叛。一个人负心，或许是因为他的记忆力不好。他忘记了，所以他能够负心；不是因为他负心，所以他忘记了。以前种种，他并非完全忘记，但他记忆力太差了，往事已经不再深刻，很快就被新的记忆取代，只记得新人的欢笑，忘记旧人的笑脸。　　爱和怀念是两回事。男人忘不了旧情人，必然是他在过去的岁月里，曾经伤害她，那一次的过失，他无法弥补。当明知不可挽回，唯一补偿的方法就是怀念，同时也用对她的怀念来惩罚自己。自以为是的深刻不过是自欺欺人的说话。

懂爱的女人通常输得很惨。爱情本来就是残忍的，胜者为王。　　感情可以转帐，婚姻可以随时冻结，激情可以透支，爱情善价而沽。是的，在这细小的都市里，这就是我们的生活。　　今天的长相厮守，只是尽力而为而已。最安全和最合时宜的方式，还是和自己厮守。

一个钱币最美丽的状态，不是静止，而是当它像陀螺一样转动的时候，没人知道，即将转出来的那一面，是快乐或痛苦，是爱还是恨。快乐和痛苦，爱和恨，总是不停纠缠。　　所谓缘分，也和发明一样吧，都是源于偶然。爱情也是一种发明，需要不断改良。只是，这种发明跟其他发明不一样，它没有专利权，随时会给人抢走。愈害怕失去的人，愈容易失去。愈想得到，就愈要放手。放手是很难的，但是别无选择。　　世上有很多东西是可以挽回的，比如良知，比如体重。但不可挽回的东西更多，譬如旧梦，譬如岁月，譬如对一个人的感觉。放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦，放弃一个你很爱的人才是痛苦。

食物可以有标签，说明"请在此之前食用"。女人不是食物，青春是有期限的，忍耐也是有期限的，请在期限期满之前好好爱她，好好照顾她，因为她是逾时不候的。　　万物有时，怀抱有时，爱情也有时序。爱情有生、老、病、死。爱情总在不知不觉间过期。有一天，我们把它拿出来，才知道它最鲜活的日子已经永远过去。在最有感觉的时候，她没有停下脚步，那么，也不必在一起走完那段路之后，回头去寻找那些散落在地上的感觉，路已经走完。　　爱情中最伤感的时刻是后期的冷淡，一个曾经爱过你的人，忽然离你很远，咫尺之隔，却是天涯。曾经轰轰烈烈，曾经千回百转，曾经沾沾自喜，曾经柔肠寸断。到了最后，最悲哀的分手竟然是悄无声息。

hehe,,,actually copy and paste from other's blog..
i remember wat walkatan said,wat is good we shall share,,it is really a nice passage...glance through it, if u have sometimes.

Finally, my final finished lo...

now , shall get prepare to further my studies overseas...

US...i m coming!!

Empathy during my Final Exam

2007-04-16T08:26:00.000-05:00

haha....Nothing special happen to share with everyone.

Feeling of Empathy just arouse during this few day, especially today.
After seeing xiao yee jie jie and wen wen's blog, haih...
what can i conclude is, i'm truthly empathy towards them, coz maybe i really can understand wat is their feeling.

Wen, it has been a long time u break up with "him". But seem like u still live under his shadow, seeing u like this, i'm xintong, but i just couldnt give u any hand. Anyway, u still have to attempt urself.U r similar to me,haha...that is the reason i like to see your blog...haha becomes my routine

Xiao yee jie jie...haih...Although i dun really know what is going on towards u. Crying,? just cry out lo...Xiao yee jie jie is in QUT, who i wanted to introduce to my ex.

Seeing chai yoon jie jie, my cousin, who used to be sad after break up with her first one

What i could conclude now is, the first one,always give a deeper impact, and the hurt is always the strongest. I could really feel it. Even thought, i broke out with him for quite sometimes, the wound is recovering, but the scar is remained there forever.
(THIS IS MY OWN OPINION BASED ON MAJORITY,IT MIGHT NOT BE TRUE)

2007-04-03T07:57:00.000-05:00

haih....

Few minutes ago, she just told me, she had cancelled the original air ticket.

I was kind of susprised.My first question came out of mind is, WHY?

I have been just accounted for.The flight is fully occupied on 3rd of August. That is the reason she told me.

She knew the date for my flight. However, she don't want to inform me. Just say that, I'll be sent to US ealier, most probably in July.

is it really the flight is fully occupied? Or there are other reason to send me off from Malaysia soon........That is wat i have expected,since i had received this information earlier by other.(your mum told my mum tat she wanna send u off from malaysia as soon as possible.) I just couldn't belicve it when i first told by others. Now, the fact had proven to me, the rumour is true.

I roughly can guess the reason behind the stone!

NO COMMENT......can't do anything, just follow what is planned by parents............haih/////////

for u,my special friend/

2007-03-27T21:37:00.000-05:00

i m in the library now....

out of sudden, ur face appear,

recall back on one of my "good friend"

i just view this...

specially dedicated for u...

click on the view it...
it is a short comic,wouldn't take a long time.
hope u enjoy it.
personally i found it touching.
http://vip.6to23.com/bxhshmily/manhua/henaihenaini.html

how are u recently? i hope that u are fine all the time. Forgive that i dont have the courage to drop by and say hi to u, i scare u will feel uneasy.

Dont get bored.Click on the link bellow,it contains my blesses....

http://vip.6to23.com/bxhshmily/manhua/py.htm

Pic section!

2007-03-24T05:00:00.000-05:00

my new spec(side view)

front view..

Li huey lor...LoL...,,,one of the my crazy members....

her new hairstyle, bye see u in USA...

Aligato,,, my new pencil case....kawaii deska? hehe,,,muakss...thanks..i like it very much...

没有后悔

2007-03-21T06:32:00.000-05:00

今天和友谈天，好久没有聊了...

谈起了我的特别朋友，

包容？我没有怪你，没有，也没有后悔过曾经的一切，没有后悔过,

没有，无论他曾经做过些什么，真的没有！

没有后悔爱上你，没有后悔为你的付出，没有后悔和你的一切一切，

我无冤无悔，

曾经的一切我没有忘记过，曾经的时刻我也没忘了，

在我家附近，聊天的时刻，在one utama, ......等等，Ipoh trip, Penang trip, 15th rural service, 16th rural service...Final year project...第一次和人庆祝情人节！,....massage,,,, and bla bla bla...

回忆永远都会在！

PRIVACY!!

2007-03-20T10:14:00.000-05:00

Thunderstorm and rainning heavily outside!

hey, Do u know what is privacy? Do you know what is that? U should have respect even though you are the elderly!!! I don't care how long have you care us, there is still something call privacy. Do you know that, you simply check sis's drawer, she would feel unhappy, do u know that, you just check others sms without any permission is RUDE! Sometimes we are really unpleasant because u divulge ppl privacy, but we just keep silent. DO U KNOW THAT?
THis is the basic moral and respect u should pay!

Stay at home all the while you would feel pleasant and happy? WHy you don't believe me? I m fed up! Even i didnt do the thing, u will thought i did it! 是不是有一天我特地做了呢？

掉而浪谠！头发长，。。。。Cant graduate at certain age,and bla bla bla..........

Yelling on top of ur voice,it is irritating,can't u say it in a polite way? Furious now, upset now...sadness now, cuz of.........

lost of faith and trust, and even respect...

Music + ambition

2007-03-17T17:26:00.000-05:00

赠：久未见面的友人

友情像白饭是感情最纯的一种，
它像白开水淡淡而止渴，
我喜欢没有条件的友情，
无需常联络却把彼此放在心里.
我珍惜不常见面的你,
记得抽空想我噢！

Music Freak.....
Love Music, a room occupy with different instruments such as cello, violin, organ, piano, guitar, electric guitar and etc…. all the music set….Everything about music…What a blessing and wonderful it is…I always enjoy with music, without music life is boring. Music keeps us from stress, a good way to depict you emotion, bunch of friends to play music together, it is one of the enjoyable moment.

Congratulation my dear best friend, Shu Yee…well done in your STPM…you are expected by me since u are one of the top students. Wow, your first choice is pharmacy, and second choice of major is dentist…. PHARMACY…it was my dream…God bless you that u could accomplish what u are hoping for. Deep inside, really hope u could continue with my ambition. I always wish to become a pharmacy, but I have neglected the chances of achieve it, so I shall not regret. Eventually I choose to major in engineering… if I have chosen the choice of pharmacy, most probably I would be doing form six.. Or I m in Sedaya College.

Which shall I major in? Chemical engineering or electrical engineering?

Oh, just couldn’t sleep well, woke up at 5 something in the morning,…haha…

2007-03-12T08:39:00.000-05:00

我們常常問自己愛的人：「你會不會變？」
我們害怕他會變心。我們害怕愛情會變。
首先改變的往往不是一個人的心，而是他對事情的看法。
兩個人相愛的時候，大家對事情的看法幾乎一致的，
因為看法一致，所以我們更加珍惜對方，
更加覺得這段愛情是不可多得的。

然而，當其中一方成長得比較快，兩個人對事情的看法開始有點差異。
以前，當他說：「我覺得這件事……」
她會點頭同意，說：「對呀，我也這樣認為。」

現在，當他說：「我覺得這件事件……」的時候，
她會搖頭說：「我不同意你的看法。」

他覺得她不再崇拜他，不再欣賞他，不再像以前那麼愛他。
其實她還是愛著他，她沒改變，只是她對事情的看法改變了，
而他卻沒有改變。兩個人的差異愈來愈大，對事情的看法愈來愈不一樣，
她開始重新考慮他是否是那個陪她一起走人生路的人。
她對他的愛漸漸改變，她的心開始變了。

先變的不是愛情，而是觀點。想情人永不變心，
你要不斷重新認識改變的對方，重新欣賞改變的對方。

what do think? just came across this article from my friend's blog...
so just feel like posting here and sharing with everyone!haha

Piano perfomance

2007-03-12T06:40:00.000-05:00

iT is awesome!!!

admire their technique alot....

admire guys who know how to play piano alot....hehe

Genting Trip

2007-03-11T04:35:00.000-05:00

iT had been a long time ,i've never had a journey with friends. This time, this journey, it was expensive..VIP trip...haha///

the events...

1. finish the white chocolate in the room in a few hours

2. Guys were obliged to enter the bra shop

3. Eating ice-cream in the cold weather...

4. Expensive room, RM 400...for 4 person sharing

5. playing card (turtle) and punishment was to imitate turtle's jumping style...

The most memorable event....

-Playing in the room,,,and gained some "EXTRA EXPERIENCE!"....However,these are above 18 XX,,,,copy rights are reserved...hehe.....This game ah,,,really tiring...pushing here and there.If u are not strong enought,WARNING: PLEASE DON'T EVER TRY! YOU WOULD BE THE VICTIM AND FELL ON THE FLOOR Terry start eating adi....ahyo...havent take ur pic.....
Nice Friend Rice in "Tong loR Wan"
Me and alicia chan

This is shui gao mee
this is wantan mee
don't lar both of u
gel ur hair up?our designs!!!hehe
Nite view of the sign board

wat were both of u posing!

圆满的结局！

2007-03-06T09:37:00.000-06:00

学琴，
钢琴老师，她从小看着我长大，
一边做theory,一边说着，
她似乎看透了一切，瞒不了她，
她说了：
“好马不吃回头草”
“No Turning back, be confident with what have u decided!"
" Concentrate on Studies"
是时候，我放开了
这样对大家都好！
大家不用再痛苦，不用有包袱！
”要拿得起放得下”
这一次，没有下雨，不再因为你而下雨，这是我觉得自己进步了一件事！
应该学会你的果断！你的坚决！
学习当中！
我也应该往前看了！
让过去成为回忆吧！
不知你还会看我的部落吗？
有种感觉你不会看了！
对不起！真的对不起！
希望你不会讨厌我！
不过不管你会讨厌我，
你还是会在我心中一位特别的朋友！
珍惜这段“情谊”

赠：一位特别的朋友！

真心的祝福你！

心言：“男生终是看起来坚强，终是一脸无事的表情！”你也是这样吗？对不起！

不过我相信你比她来得坚强许多，所以，相信你不会太难过，因为，她应该没什么作用的。

相信你！

Stress! having 2 tests which i'm not prepared yet!
having the last paper for my theory exam, the hardest one, which in on this saturday,
ITALIAN TERMS,GERMAN TERMS,FRENCH TERMS, TRIO SONATA, COMPOSE A MUSIC, WRITTING THE PIANO PIECE....aAHHHHH!!!

i'M GETTING MAD NOT READY YET!

BUT writting blog is a way for me to release my feeling!

Why there is so much thing to apply for US visa?
Oh my god....

Seeing my parents especially my mum! That she 不舍得我的表情！
i felt.....
haih....

feel better now...shall continue with my works...

Bless you!

放开

2007-03-04T03:01:00.000-06:00

我选择了这个决定！
这是我决得最好的决定，
对你我他都好！

失去，
有时候失去其实是,
另一个拥有的开始！

则则底底的放开了，
一个曾经很喜欢的一个人，
一个是特别的人，
一个我的初恋，

放开了，决定放开了！
谢谢你在回忆中添加了不可少的一部分！

回忆只能淡忘，不能被遗弃也不能被忘记，
除非失忆了！
曾经有人这样告诉我！

与表弟妹们的照片，

无聊，两个小弟妹，嚷着要拍照！

嗨。。。。

～人间最短的距离～

2007-03-03T21:11:00.000-06:00

世界上最远的距离

不是生与死的距离

而是我站在你面前

你不知道我爱你

泰戈尔－<<世界上最远的距离>>

人世间，

最短暂的距离不是你站在我面前，

而是两颗心相撞的一刹那。

三月有情人

我们一起来发现－－人间最短的距离.

今天早上看到的一遍文章，觉得挺有意识、

Tomyam steamboat!

2007-03-02T20:51:00.000-06:00

Went to Roy house for the steamboat for BBq too!

Although this is not the first time, i went to his house, but this was the first time eating in his house. Kind of impressed by his family member by the way they communicate. They are treating their family member like friends. And also, eventually, i saw the new pet, Hasky,a dog. Too bad cant get it's pic!

eating the Tomyam steamboat! Before starting our delicious dinner, I "bake" a cake. Due to a butterfly's flying in my stomach, i didnt really eat much. However, my great task was to help them to take up the oily and greasy surface on the tomyam soup. Others were frying hot dog and burger on the frying pan, beside the bowl. Wah, the burger looks awesome with the BBQ source! haha...Good ingredients...There were prawn too! haha

After the dinner, i was playing with Hasky! Hasky was too friendly, licking me all the time, and kissing me, hugging me! It whole body pounce on me and i felt on the floor. This remind me about my another friend's dog, who is very friendly too. That little doggy even know French Kiss with gals,,,haha......must be imitating it's master! haha

AFter struggling for sometimes, Hasky was asleep. Now we were playing Nami. hehe, i'm the beginner and finally i knew how to play it. Aunt and Ah ying won the games. Me, should be consider no lost and no win ... I'm in the moderate.

went home around eleven. opened the door, they were concentrating in watching TV...Sweat!!!
I : " why so quiet?"
family :" dont you see that we are watching?"

Sweat!

insight:" next week there is two test which is pHysic 2 and moral and also my theory exam on next sat! haih...sight...gotta GAMBATEH!"

KAWAII!!!~~~.

2007-03-01T22:31:00.000-06:00

I found my favourite DBSK's mix songs!

2007-02-28T09:02:00.000-06:00

This song did remind me about CUX!!!His favourite description on himself...HIS Sake Bath Gel is still on my table, hehe, still haven't use it for bath!

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

Music Code provided by Song2Play.Com

Let see BYlTe.!!1

If let li HUey to see this, what is her first expression! let guess must Be...WEI!!!! I WANT IT

but i like these want....hehe...

This is Cute,,COOl oR not?

tHis is more innocent look...NICE NICE NICe!!!!!

Today, i'm tired, so decided to let myself relax for one day, listening to song and blog here. But tmr gotta continue with works!

This is Another Japanese Song i found it nice!

lyrics...japanese version

れをりうたに忘れていた目を闭じて　

取り戻せ恋のうた青空に隠れている　

手を伸ばしてもう一度忘れないですぐそばに　

仆がいるいつの日も星空を眺めている　

一人きりの夜明けもたった一つの心　

悲しみに暮れないで君のためいきなんて　春风に変えてやる阳のあたる坂道を　

自転车で駆けのぼる君と失くした想いde出乗せて行くよララララ　

口ずさむ　くちびるを染めて行く君と见つけたしあわせ花のように忘れていた窓wo开けて　走り出せ恋のうた青空に托している　手をかざしてもう一度

忘れないよすぐそばに　君がいるいつの日も星空に辉いてる　

涙揺れる明日もたった一つの言叶　この胸に抱きしめて君のため仆は今　

春风に吹かれてる阳のあたる坂道を　

自転车で駆けのぼる君と誓った约束乗せて行くよララララ　

口ずさむ　くちびるを染めて行く君と出会えたしあわせ祈るように君と出会えたしあわせ祈るように

Translation:

已经忘却了

闭上双眼找回已经失落的恋歌

隐藏在青色天空中再一次伸手触摸不要忘记了

要快回到我身边无论何时只要我在这里

都会独自一个人仰望着天上的星空直到天明仅存的这颗心

不要太过于悲伤你的叹息

我会将它化成春风阳光照耀的坡道上

脚踩的自行车上搭载着的是于你一起失去的回忆 la la la la低声吟唱

让唇染上缤纷的色彩而行就像和你一起发现的幸福花朵一般

已经忘却了打开窗户起步吧恋之歌托高了双手

再一次依附着青空无法忘记快回到我身边

只要你在这里无论什么日子在明天的泪光中

星光仍然会闪耀着只是一句话如今我还是仅仅拥在怀中

为了你今天的我依然被春风吹拂着

阳光照耀的坡道上脚踩的自行车上

搭载着的是于你一起失去的回忆 la la la la低声吟唱

让唇染上缤纷的色彩而行就像和你一起发现的幸福花朵一般祈祷与你相会的幸福

And i realize i like to listen to those songs which i dunno wat they are basically singing about? Such as korean songs and Japanese songs. Although i dun even understand, i just find the melody is smoothing and listen to it.

Anyway, today i discovered that i possess some "HIDEN SPECIAL TALENTS"! I'm talented at it!=P Might have been repressed for quite sometimes. N now is released out! Be careful and Aware of it...HA HA .....^.^

The day for today, Tuesday!

2007-02-27T05:52:00.000-06:00

wat the....

Wahah,, i could finally make a nice n delicious hard boiled egg in this morning!

I late for class for an hour, Oh my god!!! And i missed wat she was teaching in the beginning.Linear algebra,....the matrices...i'm blur.. Therefore, my friend, Alicia, who accompanied me to find a parking ended up entering the class late too. The class started at 12pm and i was supposed to go out at 11am from my house, but ended up,..........haih,,,,so late for class lo,,,,u understand wat m i talking rite?

And I parked my car,very far apart. Fortunately, still our "little Peng X2" to fetch me there. So saved up my walking distance. Actually this Devil is not an Evil Devil, at least he got some Angel heart inside.

Brought some cookies to let them ENJOY! Alicia and Peng Peng ah,ate the cookies and wipe ur hand on my shirt,,,how evil you guys were!!!

Today class ended up half and hour earlier then before. Promise today to meet with somebody lo...Then, accompanied by me to eat in Sushi King.....

Sorry lo dun understand wat do u mean? What 1200 words essay? ahyo, U still have 14 weeks to deal with it, believe u can make it. LOL

Really admire my friends who could get the scholarship for the university. Haha, however, the university i wish to go do not offer scholarship. University of Nebraska, offer so much scholarship, Drake Uni too...But they are not in my choice. Most of them are for actuarial science. Haih,,,,sigh....Is ok...

TOday, crap till here, wanna continue to do my work adi...

Teddy today has badminton tournament, wish u all the best.Sorry, i can't physically support you but mentally i'm supporting you lo!

Insight: "Today,i'm weird, but weird in a good way. Unexpected that was what i've done. And it was amusing. Eventually, i know what could i do to create this entertaining moment adi!!hehe"
Take care everyone!

2007-02-25T07:18:00.000-06:00

Chinese New Year's holiday ....is gone.....

Time to get back to college and study again.....

Get back to college, assignments, tests, .....and etc......

Life of an ordinary college student

Child vs Adult

2007-02-23T07:38:00.000-06:00

Just out of sudden, felt tired,exhausted....

I always enjoyed playing fool around with the kids.

They are hilarious and ridiculous...

In their world, it's not so complex and sophisticated. Their life is simple,naive,easy-going.They could did wat they feel like doing....they could yell for nothing, could whisper for fun....,could pretend to cry.....

On the other hand, when u are getting elder, these seem to be apart from you. Adult is too fake/...artificial....imitating others!! wearing an ugly mask...."phantom of the opera". You won't get to their true feeling, behavior, attitude......

what do u think?

HAppy Chinese New Year !

2007-02-16T08:17:00.000-06:00

A HAppy belated valentine's day! and an earlier HAppy Chinese New Year to everyone!

Going back to my hometown again, what a wonderful place it is.IT is just a peaceful and small town which is located in Selangor.

YEs, is the time to get "ang pao" again! haha....

dear kylie

2007-02-12T07:01:00.000-06:00

Say good bye to my lovely friends, kylie! I sent her to LRT station. This was the last chance i can see her before she is leaving to Australia. Wondering, when will we ever meet each other again? two years later ? three years later?

She proclaimed that she is leaving...A kind of weird feeling just aroused when i dropped her near the station. haha, i won't forget that we created the century comedy on saturday outing! STARBUCKS COFFEE WITHOUT SUGAR!

Miss you and love u...my darling no 2!Bless u...

i quote from lee pot' s blog hehe,it's awesome reading this. .

Guide for precourtship
1. Faith - God made us complete.. with out Him we are no one..

2. Vision - Having the vision of "We are to go there together", have something that you will share to make things work. Most of the time its not where we are but its the level of vision that guides the relationship. Men should lead but women is to voice.

3. Identity Value - Be clear of knowing who we are when you are in a relationship and not seeking to get from each other but to give each other what we can. Never ever learn to be a taker as taker is the loser!

4. Personal Development - Let the person you love to be who they want to be and the best they can be by supporting and not restricting.

5. Purity - Purity begins in the mind, Have self respect and know how to respect your partner. Please God by proctecting them and keeping them pure until you enter the correct stage of life.

6. Legacy - We must always bear in mind do not ever involve ourselves in adultery and inrighteousness.

7. Health - Keep the relationship healthy.

My parents

2007-02-09T21:22:00.000-06:00

guess who is this.... ?

She could be ur caring friends,sometimes she is a rabbit.SOmetimes,she is like a tiger.She could be either be lenient and stern.

Parents are always the one who care u the most.

spend my life for 19 years, who is the one that brought us up?

No doubt,besides parents whoelse?

I m really glad to have both of you as my parents.

Sorry to let both of u worry about me all the time.

Sorry for what i have did.

Sorry that sometimes i tell lies

Sorry for everything.

My lovely daddy and mummy

where are u touching baba??,,moless?dun simply touch o...
>
i protect mum...

DBSK' s MTV...

2007-02-03T08:41:00.000-06:00

It has been quite some times i didn't view their mtv, Today i just glance through it...ahh, I'm fainted...

Hopefully i could attend their concert before i further my studies in USA..I WANNA GO FOR THEIR CONCERT!!!
That I'll be grateful

Actually i have posted this in dbsk's profile, still i hope to post it here.

This is one of my favourite mv "Ones"- The theme songs for one milliionaires love, It is a sad story.

You are my Miracle

suspiciously, this is the first time i watch this mtv..

HEY GIRL

dbsk-in Disney land...

It is quite old but still. must try the games in Disneyland. If given a chance i must visit the disney land in US...

Tri-Angle Performance(feat. BoA, The Trax)

I really like the way they are. They way they perform,their dance, their songs, Of course their outlook!!!

Wondering if one day i could see them, what will i react?
Hehe,,,

Dongbangshinki - yunho & jaejoong flexing

Dbsk-Randomness fmv

This the randomn wan...

人物描写

2007-02-01T19:55:00.000-06:00

此时此刻的心情，忽然有种想起一些朋友，，

谢婉柔－曾经是儿时的知己和良伴，她让我知道什么是教堂、基督教。是个很开朗的女孩。

陈日彬－小学时的puppy love 对象，，哈哈，想起以前我们也太可爱了。

郑紫韵－不晓得还有没有改名，当然也叫她connie,小学时最最要好的朋友，在学校天天见面，回家时还会“煲电话粥”，所以我们两天天都被父母nagging.毕业后，还曾几次懊然的见面。

潘姬燕－因为我和前者感情太好，有段时期忽落了她。对朋友她是很不错。

林晓颍－初一第一个认识的人，感情非常要好，一起演习，一起玩音乐....等等。自从那次后，转淡了我们之间的感情，但是现在没有了那个模。初一至高二，我们同班了四年。

Carol Leong- 初中时我于晓颍,carol，三人行。她送我的铅笔带，我到现在还在有着，有很多年了。It is very durable.

叶晓彤－我多数叫她siew tung,她妈妈很会做食物，尤其是dessert. she is an easy going person. Always happy happy, but i know sometimes she express it out

张雯棋－原来叫雯铌，hehe,从二年级同班至五年级，又读同一间中学，又同班了五年。可说是一个老朋友。这算是缘份吧!她的个性也大约是熟透了.这是她最新的名字。

陈淑仪－是个聪明伶俐的女生。对自己要求高。常常我成为她的心情倾诉对象，也是个知己之一。

李suwen- 曾经一起补习，在陈老师家！看见她有如看见自己！

Tuen li huey-在college，major in engineering. 第一个学期就认识到现在。很独立，也是在女生当中很特别。是个英文很好，is a great anime and manga collector,当然也是东方神起超极歌迷之一。我们有着相同的梦想。那个梦想是。。。哈哈伟大叻！

陈姿毓－比我小一年，给我的感觉是她很贴人。一起三八时的其中一个组员之一。当然也有她成熟的一面,有时带点小姐脾气，但是做起事情是很积极。

陈雪玲－本来不会说华语，和我们在一起多了华语也学会了不少。置身与英文教学之家的她，英文当然也是有一定的水准。哈哈是很多男生追求的对象。

loh khai lee- 同样chem 151,chem 152,csc101,and bla bla bla....自从csc 后，拉近了我们。我们两常是心情共同分享者。very soon she will be in Aus...miss ya..

张骏威－是个工程系最top 的学生。成绩顶瓜瓜。是我的小天使，也是我的大哥。是个大好人！没脾气，见过挺完美的人。快绝种了。

刘忠豪－忠厚老实，也是我和骏威的老爸！每一次，他的一句话能够平复我，是我很敬爱的朋友，也很珍惜的友人。

黄伟川－十五届下乡认识了他，非常的照顾我。是雪州的篮球代表。打篮球时他很有型。很体贴也是个开心果。他常常于快乐为伍。他让我第一次知道一些感觉是怎样。“只要你开心我就开心。”谢谢你。

沈英豪－曾经是个关系非常密切的好朋友，也是我初恋情人。他奥而也会给人一些惊讶！一起渡过很多第一次的经验。有着很多开心和难过的记忆。曾是我很在乎的人，最喜欢他深深的酒窝，深得可以填水了。不会忘记的朋友。

远吉－15th 学术组组员之一，不知何时成为我弟，又在不久前成为我老公，嗨，关系太复杂了。这个学期我们变得很要好。又名－teddy bear, 最爱看他打羽球。又是一个羽球州手。

陈俊豪－也是我的丈夫之一。个子娇小，有时有点gay gay 的。又叫 "gay lou"。

管美云－是我的组长！Somehow, we share some similarities。比如说：aup girls,stact club, 和很多啦，就如她所说的，看见我是好象看见她自己以前的影子！

张博钿－好久前就认识了，但是并不熟悉。很体贴的人,以前叫国炜，看见他换了名字第一个反应是想笑，哈哈！圆圆的，看起来与实际年龄有点差距。好爱想东西，比女孩还会想东想西。有时也有少许的成熟度。哈哈。是很珍惜的一个人。。

Thaipussam

2007-01-31T22:44:00.000-06:00

Today was thaipussam,

Due to an assignment, we are obliged to visit Batu cAves yesterday night.

They are playing drums..

They are carrying the status,,Can u see?It is too crowded...

They are spinning, it's difficult for our photographer to take the pic..

we finally reach batu caves!

Use this to pray....but more, more wishes..hehe...

his " red dot" is a heart shape!

look, elephant's body with dunno wat animal's head..

this is the entrance..

in this visitation, we got to know each other more. Alicia? haih,,,nothing to say, she is my darling,too close, Terry? my little brother who was sick yest..Emm, oso , very close, until people misunderstand....yest...Sigh....Peng cheng, dunno him well...

Insight: Everything happens has a reason. FRom a good impression to bad, after knowing the reason behind the story,the impression is rebuilt again. Empathy.....

Final fantasy-TVXQ version

2007-01-27T22:20:00.000-06:00

let compare and have a look, Final fantasy!!!

this is jaejoong version so pretty lar...

mickey's version of kadaj

junsu version of Cloud

Chang ming version

View Show Create Your Own

Different perception

2007-01-27T21:12:00.000-06:00

JUst now, I read back the latest entry until the oldest entries. All the unpleasant moment had over! Glance back all the previous entries. The First entry was on 24 of november, year 2006.....till now 2007.....

这布落曾是我伤心难过时的一个发泄空间，现在已经是有不同的功能了。

看了之前布落的mtv,Gigi-原来爱情这么伤,当时真的是有多伤，就连开始的introduction 也一样，〔那天下午我们面对面坐着，他什么也没说，这样子的沉默另人好难受，最后他只说了一句你不要再哭了。〕

listen back to the songs, like Guang liang's song- 约定， SHE－我们怎么了，Gigi-原来爱情这么伤。。。。no more sadness. 还记得看过一个友人的布落说过，“当或许就当你在洗头发的时候，你会忽然想起那个他，然后发觉，原来他早已不占据你的思绪。。。在不知不觉中，你已经学会了放下。。。”

之前的部落，2006 年的，都是围绕着你，很不开心。

2007年，一月二十九日，那种心情没了。今早还是一样收到了你的问候，谢谢你，我一切安好，也希望你工作顺利。懊而，都会有你这一些的问候。

试想想，已经是一个月多了，心情也可以平复了，哈哈，现在又是一个三八的薇！

那天，明强，谢谢你哦，你让我觉得很欣慰，也少许的感动！可能你也不晓得你做了什么！很多时候，就那么一句话。

就好像曾经组长的那一句话后，之后我都会去看看她的布落格.

当然，也得谢谢博钿先生。在前一端时期，对我的呵护与照顾！怎么把你说得那么老了呢？你的新名字还挺“In ” 的嘛！很试合你吗！哈哈！啊哟，你就不必害怕留下comment lar,没人会笑你的。Gambateh yo!!!!!!不过看见你一手一个人剪cardboard 应该很困难吧！别熬夜，，，，豆豆出来了。。。。

不错嘛，我弟还能够"bom" 你到无话可说！他就是这样有话直说，下次你还有好受呢！！！hehe....EVIL Smile.....kekekekeke.......

In Mat lab.....

2007-01-23T23:12:00.000-06:00

In a mat lab now, having a ten minutes break, i m able to go online and glance through the website.....Seem like everyone is concentrating on the computer screen more than than her lectures....Sigh.....

lect:" pretending u guys are listening to my class."
Actually this is a small class,There is only 12 students in the class.

Getting bored of msn spaces, on the other hand, it is too easy for others to view the blog in msn spaces....

So, i think i might not update the blog in msn spaces,,,,,

2007-01-23T09:13:00.000-06:00

I;m so evil,Today i did something bad to somebody who i care so much....

I knew the feelings....IT is really hurt when somebody say it to you....

I'm sorry,,,,

As what i say, Somebody has slowly and silently give a very deep.....

Perhaps me myself oso didnt realise....

But i shall say,,,,i really care about you....

I dun wan u to get hurt,,,,

wish u are the happiest person in the life....

sleepy lar....

2007-01-21T05:59:00.000-06:00

爱是很抽像，不具体。。。
总是爱写些有的没的，
对爱的执着、对爱的忠实、对爱的真诚、
纵然用母语去表明会来得更加顺畅。。。。
爱看韩剧是因为结局是很美满。。。。
男主角都是又帅气、又富有、品得好、文武双全。
女主角就是像灰姑娘似的，与以上的男主角相恋。。。
简值是童话般的构思。。。
Hey hey, 听说korean drama, 的友人说<<宫x>> 很不错。。

好了我决定今天起，这里不再是围绕着你－豪的话题。。。

小阿姨，一路顺风，万分的不舍，下次定会去日本找你哦！
那年的日本之vacation, 让我回味无穷，保重

心言：“ 不知何时才能再相见！嗨，人生就是有很多分分离离的时候。”

2007-01-20T22:55:00.001-06:00

黄品冠-朋友变情人再变朋友

安静的房间还有你的温柔

躺在棉被上看着多的枕头

为何分手后

回忆就被偷走

爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友

你和我以前是朋友

心情不错就想约你走走

你要电影我听你唱歌

我们总是无话不说

还能做朋友或许这是最好的结果

朋友变情人再变朋友谁懂这坎坷

爱上你以后愉悦很轻松

现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我

当爱上以后如今我们分手

我变成情歌手是唱太多太多bala歌

你和我现在是朋友你那么好却只能做朋友

你撞了我我装无所谓我们如何要求更多

还能做朋友或许这是最好的结果

朋友变情人再变朋友只能显真格

你和我以前是朋友

心情不错就想约你走走

你要电影我听你唱歌

我们总是无话不说

还能做朋友或许这是最好的结果

朋友变情人再变朋友

谁懂这坎坷

你和我现在是朋友你那么好却只能做朋友

你撞了我我装无所谓我们如何要求更多

还能做朋友或许这是最好的结果

朋友变情人再变朋友只能写真的

朋友变情人再变朋友祝我们快乐!!!

hehe, this song ,,,,,,,haha indicate wat?

this is the pic, where we last take in airport,
从那一刻开始，我们已经越走越远。。。。便回朋友。。。真是不容易。。。

这个部落是我开始想和你分开时,开始写的。。。。

2007-01-12T07:08:00.000-06:00

Friday , this is end of a week. Today, I’m supposed to go back college to let my counselor to check my translations of all the certificates. Eventually, I was too lazy to drive back to college. Sat in front of the computer and burned nice songs into CDs. I took the whole day to serve the internet and search for the songs which I hope to include in the CDs. Some how, just have the feeling of burning some nice songs for you.OMG, I should do my tutorial………….Linear Algebra, physic lab report, physic tutorial, religion’s notes . Besides that I oso updated some songs inside the MP4 player such as deeply in love, one sweet love, we are the reason. Although these are not the new songs, I found it nice too.

Received a forward message by my RS friend. I wish to send it to you. However, I just insist not to do so. That message is really suitable to send to you. Ur handset number, Ur Australia numbers are so vividly in my mind. Those numbers can just simply come out from my mind naturally. 017-…….., 614………haha,,, Sometimes I m so proud and admire myself. Such a long numbers, I can clearly state it out without any mistake.

Sometimes, just a small little matters or any objects or places can relate to you. Sigh……..Wondering,,,,when I would not relate to you anymore…There is someone who cares more and treasure me more than you are. I shall not waste my energy on you anymore.

心言：“怪不得人家说初恋是最难忘的。。。。”

Heh,,,piggy, I actually saw what is the book,,,It is a DIY books rite? I’m quite happy to see that. Are you planning to DIY It…Oh that is my pleasure…..Hehe , I should start to save money adi…A lot of occasions in this coming February. TVXQ’s concert….valentine’s day, Birthdays….and bla bla bla…….

Despite I would still think of him some of the time, I shall admit that, your round round face would appear in my mindset.

心言：“ 适当的时候应该避一避也是无妨，何时？你不会再占据我的思绪？真希望能够快点。。。”

2007-01-11T09:32:00.000-06:00

Just finish translating my certificate into English!

Why?? Uni Application is so complicated...

Have to prepare the Bank Letter, certificate,application form, transcript, bank statement....and bla bla.....

Leaving Malaysia in the coming August, To US...just to further my studies, hope i can leave here, to the new places and new environment and start my life again...

Today, I was fishing in the class......SLEEPY......

I FOund something to share with...

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心言：“现在终于明了别人说无论再怎样努力，从情人变朋友真的需要时间。。。。"

i like the above comment very much!!!

2007-01-07T20:29:00.000-06:00

很多mushroom 的 mushroom soup.

星期六，友人生日，在一间意大利餐厅庆祝。

hawaiian pizza...

很大份。

晚上又是Alumni's gathering 和伦的 farewell.

看看谁吃了那么多蚌。。。。。

看见你，我不开心。你就真的留下那么深的疤痕吗？假装和你没事了，可是明明就不是那样。还要笑容满脸。

还叫我和照。我讨厌你一副无事的表情。更讨厌你的问候。

看见别人长距离，也是好好的，为什么我就这样？到底做错了什么？为什么上天要这样对我。我讨厌自己爱上这样的你，早知，我不会投入。不会！不会！

星期天晚上，内疚，嗨，我间接的害了你们不能玩久点。

2007-01-02T00:49:00.000-06:00

Year 2006 is over...

Now start with year 2007 lo..So Soon,,haih,,new year with new wishes and new hope. Everything start from the new, start from beginning...

从零开始，一切从新来过。

我会尽力的，真的喜欢上了吗？

可是有时又好像不是,又好像是
有时会想念，有时又没有，

也许吧，连自己也不清楚，
真的希望这一次是能够天长地久。

dbsk's slideshow

2006-12-31T23:48:00.000-06:00

all my favourite oba!!!haha

原来爱情这么伤--梁咏琪

2006-12-25T02:31:00.000-06:00

原来爱情这么伤--梁咏琪

finally i knew it....love is not a good thingssss........

2006-12-21T00:12:00.000-06:00

This is the DBSK step by step MV....

mErry Christmas!!!

2006-12-18T09:47:00.000-06:00

Finally i realise love is not nice and playful. Once u have step into it, really the pay is there....Commitment.....It's fine and ok when u are in a sweet time. But when there is one side who is not committed to a relationship, den this relationship will not work anymore.

Few days ago, tears will just visit me frequently. But now, it doesnt visit me so often. Perhaps i have "xiang tong".Finally i can say goodbye to you.

什么都舍得”

戴佩妮的一首歌，

到这里，只能送你到这里
是我没勇气陪你走下去
没有勇气，对不起
我害怕看见你的背影
不哭泣，说好谁也不哭泣
是我不争气
我的眼泪多么不争气，对不起
答应我你要照顾自己

不要你什么
只要你快乐
再多的辛苦也都是值得
更值得的是，
回忆是一辈子
我在你心里住过一阵子

不要你什么
只要你记得
谁曾是你最依偎的那个
那个人是我
也许走远了
为了看你多一次微笑
什么都舍得

为了换你多一次微笑
什么都舍得

我想我依然是这样想的。。。不愿去扰乱你已平静的生活。。。回忆是一辈子的。。。就算结局不是我希望的，但只要你是快乐的。。。为了你多一次的微笑，我依然是什么都舍得。。。

2006-12-16T07:02:00.000-06:00

Today my mood is a lot better. I played badminton with my old frenz like shu yee,yen san and winnie. We started to recall back what we have done in the past. It is so funny.

Now i had a very good person who care me alot, but when i see the pic ,my feeling just arouse again.

2006-12-14T23:51:00.001-06:00

Finally, I had made the decision. What is over is over. I just felt I m a stupid person, who threw the true feeling and heart into the river. I should have checked how deep the river is before I threw the heart into. Now, I dig out the heart back again. It is really a difficult task and it is time consuming. Since this is the first time. Now I start to believe that, the first time will give a deep impression. I want to clear this memory from my mind.

Assuming that, it was just a dream. This dream is occupied with sadness and happiness. Why do I throw it to a river which is so deep and challenging? I should treasure it better and dun let it throw inside. I just woke up from my dream. The ending is not what I’ve expected. The dream was too real, until that make me so upset and solemn,

In front of everyone especially you, I have to pretend that I’m fine. I’m ok. Actually, I’m very sad. I just can’t stop blaming myself as the stupidest person. I fell in love with someone who does not care and even like me before. I’m just blur blur in my own world. Cux, favourite description on me.

There is sometimes, I’m upset and frustrated with you. Why do u play with such a gal? I should have known that u are not serious anymore. Why do I still so considerate and tolerate with you? Why do I still give u a change? Why do I still give you a good reason? I should not. Because in the end, the one who get hurt is still me, myself.

When I just woke up from the bed, I still feel bad and weird. It is from the heart. I wanna release out. But I can’t . Something is repressing it. Then finally, it is poured out. But today, the feeling is like the first day, something is repressing it again. There is a needle, spinning in the heart. It is bleeding. Someone can help to stop it from bleeding? I know, no one could do so. Only I can do that. From the day until now, hamster’s tears will pour out at least once a day. Eventually, I knew, it is hurting. Really hurt.

In sight: I’ll never believe in love anymore. Those are fairly tales. I will never throw inside again.

What is required? Time is the best solution which I can think of. Give me sometimes. On the other hand, dun pressure me so much, Perhaps you dunno, indirectly, you are giving me stress. Dun call me with that four letter at this moment.

伤

2006-12-13T05:49:00.000-06:00

很伤、难过、强眼微笑，我不知为何眼泪就是不断的流出来。原来爱情真的是可以很伤的。
我已经把全部你的sms,email,delete 了。
让我知道这已经是过去式。
我该向前看。
让我重新开始。
过去了，别再去留恋，
可惜多的是回忆，我该怎么面对？
心痛，现在我真真了解与体会，第一次，有了那么深的感觉。。。。

刚要停止的泪水，不知为何开始流了。。。
今天12月13日，你很坏，偏偏就在今天选择让我说出口。
让我记得，，，记得我选择放弃的这一天，就是你的生日。
衰！！！

心灵上没有恨，只有痛。
这样也叫做勇敢？勇敢的当而，谁了解那个痛？

sms 上，我得强眼的说我没事，不用说对不起或谢谢。。。
实际上，我很逞强。。。。明明就说不上，但还要不让你担心逞强的说.

虽说已经有心理准备，但还是痛。。。。

让时间冲淡一切。。。

2006-12-12T20:32:00.000-06:00

好久没有到此了，

今天，是你的生日，

happy birthday,may ur wishes come true.

我答应了今天与你一起。

现在的我是什么心情？乱？气？失望？

一次一次的对不起，我。。。。已经不行了。

夜晚有人问我，你会心动吗？你会改变你的决定吗？要是他留你了。。。

恶魔在对我说理他的？生日就可以不用在这个时候说吗？

天使说薇，无论他再怎么错，也别那么绝。。。

心 : 我心里的痛谁来懂？

无论如何，希望你也幸福。

应该这样吗?

2006-11-29T22:55:00.000-06:00

我的心…我应该有这样的想法吗？

你一句把感情转淡吧？说淡就要淡，还真佩服你。你终是弄得我无话可说。

你说得对，你说：“我们的年龄不适合谈恋爱,现在市风全部坏了，男女关系搞得乱七八槽，离婚percentage 在增加，我们是不应该谈恋爱。”是啊你是说得对，你时常都会这样告诉我。记得你说过我们现在这年龄谈恋爱是个错误。我问了你那怎么办？你说：“就这样，所以就是淡一点，比如说联络少一点，重新认识一下,不会说分手那些话。”我明白你不会说分手那些话，是你不想再一次伤害女生，再一次内疚。那我说了是不是你就不用成为内疚，那也不是你伤了我啊。那你应该会好一点。

你说我和你一起，怕是我的欲望……好啊，你知道吗？句句话让我无话可说，在我心中就多一分痛。我现在写着回想起这一句话，心中好难过。泪水挤满眼眶,好几次都悄悄流下少许。

是我的欲望？想得到关心也是一种欲望？

联络你,你可以不回应，忙是这样，不忙时也是这样。这象征什么？emm, 你都是这样对你的朋友和家人的吗？

我问了你，要是我没主动联络你，你是不是都不联络我？你回答不出。我明白了。

一段感情只有一方去珍惜，一方去在乎，是不是应该重新整理，放开你的手呢？

我不知道我这样想是真确吗?

疑惑、疑问

2006-11-25T11:52:00.000-06:00

Nov 25, '06 11:36 AMfor everyone
今天和朋友聊天时，听她说遭遇时，眼眶快有“蒸馏水”了,也快即出了。
思念和想念，这两个词有分别吗？

脑里终是有一些问题浮现，也不知道这些问题是我多心还是应该有？常常都想打破沙锅问到底，但都是没有那个机会。每个男女关系都是那样子吗？

有好多疑惑、疑问。你......真的有把我当是你的.....信心以被打击太多了，没有以前那么充足。也许有些事情个人看法不同。为什么终是和你说问题时，结果都好像又说到我伤你。我想说的是，内心里，薇也是遍体磷伤。你知道吗？因为在乎所以受伤？我赞同这个说法。

机会给了又给，能否别在那样。忙就可以吗？好之前是忙，不能怪你。可是现在你没忙了吧，放假了，为何连e-mail 或sms 都没有呢？在别说是打电话了！难道你都不会想念或思念吗？
这种心情我也不知怎样形容，气、失望、痛心、伤心、每个心情都有。
没有要求你为我做任何事情，也不敢在有任何奢求与期望。也许也知道你不会去做,所以都不期望。有了希望没能达成结果会是失望。只指望你在乎我,过分吗？在你回来的时候，我希望大家能搞清楚。你还在乎我吗？我也会乘机弄清楚，你到底还在乎或关心吗。一段感情如果一方已经是无心去维持，一方已经是不再在乎了，那已经等于句号了。那么我也知道该怎么做了。与其一人一直去难过，也别搞得双方都难过。无论结果是如何，你是我喜欢的人。

内心：好希望有一天，你能是自动自发，都不需要我说。

好矛盾，虽然是.....,可今天看见一个，DIY photo frame,我还是想送给你。Dunno can i do it nicely? will try my best!

内心：你这样子他会怎么样？到时，会不会不领情？被说无聊！我会不会笨？是不是已经得到手,都不会去珍惜？

~wei~

大家好！

2006-11-24T09:55:00.000-06:00

haha,change a place to write blog...

actually, i have written some blog before here,,but, all has been deleted. 时间好快从七月到现在，转瞬间要回来了！原以为会很兴奋，但并没有与想想中来得兴奋。当然，想看见你的心情，还是开心。这段时间里有许许多多的事情发生，来得太突然，人生不就是如此。薇，也不过是个普通人，真的受影响了。不过不要紧，gambateh! Fighting! next sem, 要更加努力。使出原有的实力！ I'm in a holiday mood.Break for two months. Have to prepare toefl, application for uni,....sigh..... I've watched two korean drama in a few days. haha,i'm so pround of that. "Goong" and "My Girl", both are nice.

Learned korean languages again. 做戏永远都是戏，现时中又那会有那样只的男人？

会有个念头！我在你心中是？

oppa,deka,bo o ship ta!好想念。

今天也与一位老朋友-老公msn 聊天。看见她日渐消瘦，像是看见以前自己的影子。要加油！别在让我担心哦！